I was thinking about Jeremy's funeral today, mostly because I got a letter from the funeral home. I think of it all the time, but sometimes it is more than others.

I remember the day that I went looking for headstones. I went to one place and they wanted $1600 for one. That about made me sick. I was staying with my nephew at the time and I went down stairs, crawled into bed and pulled the covers up over my head. But then I thought, "No get up and do what you have to do. I called up Sheboygan monument and they said they would stay open for me.

First of all when I was looking around everything was $880 and that was more than I had. We went outside and walked around and there were two humps showing from the snow. She brushed the snow away and it was a heart. It too was $880. I said obviously what I wanted and what I could afford was two different things so they should show me something I could afford. I looked at some low gray stones but the owner knew I liked that heart so he gave me a price I couldn't refuse. The inscription was more so I passed on that, but they called a week later and said that they would do it for free. I always used to end his letters with the words, "Love you lots! Mom" so that is what I had inscribed on his stone as well.

If you need a funeral home, I would suggest Ballhorns and if you need a monument I would suggest Sheboygan Monument. They both deserve your business. They will both be blessed for their kindness to me.

My friends went to the grave yard and put flowers there and took pictures of the headstone. I have it as a backdrop on my computer. I can't visit the grave as some do, but I can visit it virtually on the computer, and later I will visit him face to face in Heaven.