Happy Anniversary

Today was my one year anniversary. My roommate and I decided I should celebrate today as a day to remember Jeremy and also feel good about the fact that I made it through a whole year. We even went out for lunch and played some games. I had an enjoyable day and I figure if I could make it through this day, I could make it through any day that lies ahead. I gave myself permission to stop mourning. It hasn't notified my eyes yet that they don't have to tear up all the time, but that will come in time.

I was talking to a friend of mine and we were remembering a time when he went for a ride on the four wheeler and got splattered with mud. What a mess that was! But he had a grand time and that was all that was important. Jeremy was the type of person that used to crack up when something touched his funny bone. And when he cracked up, you couldn't help but laugh. He couldn't hold it back, it came out in all kinds of tones and made him breathless. It was such a riot.

One day Jeremy and I and mom had gone on a train ride to the end of the line in Canada. We had gone up one day, stayed over night in a little French village and then came back the next day. I had stopped to pick him up a comic book thinking he wouldn't get bored on the way back. Mom and I both got books as well. I didn't have to worry about it being boring for him. We shared the car with one couple. The guy was always laughing. He'd go through this whole string every time. He'd start out with Ha ha ha, hee, hee hee, ho, ho, ho! He had Jeremy laughing so hard and of course that made us laugh too. Our stomachs were so sore by the end of the day.

Going back to the comic book I picked up for him, he looked at it briefly once and set it aside. It was a comic I know he liked. I asked him why he wasn't reading it. He said, "I can't, it's in French." The man overheard him say that and that brought on a whole new bout of laughter.

He had a great day on the way back, and to top it all off he got to go sit in the engine and blow the whistle when we went over a deep and long gorge. We had lots of fun times together, and I am glad I could take today, the anniversary of his death, and remember some of those times. If any of you read this and remember things about Jeremy, please, post an answer and let me hear about them.